I realize that when I posted the last time I said I had a lot to write about.  The problem is that it's been so long since I wrote that that now I've totally forgotten what I wanted to write about!  Oops.

 

I think maybe one of the things I wanted to write about was...can you guess?...Philip.  I'm not 'obsessed' with him or anything.  In fact, I hardly have any communication with him lately (including email), but he's just done this complete 180 since I met him that everytime I learn something new, I'm so surprised I have to talk about it.  The funny thing is that I was talking to one of his friends (who I've known longer than I've known Philip) and he said the same thing.  We don't recognize him (and we laughed about how much of a bum he's become...but just a little).  At any rate, he was home in VT for a short while and then they (he and the gf) went back to WA where they proceeded to get an apartment and started looking for jobs.  The next thing I know I get an email from him saying that they were leaving WA the next day to go to AZ for a temp job.  They had applied for this job a while back and didn't get it.  Apparently some other people couldn't go, so Philip and the gf were the next choice I guess.  So they were out in WA for less than two weeks and then off to AZ...to watch eagles.  Yup.  That's their job...but only for another month and a half...then they are homeless and jobless again.  This 'eagle watching' job has them camping in the desert.  So for three months they are living out of a tent and watching eagles.  I surprisingly got an email from him just a couple of days ago (I didn't think he'd have internet access) and he said that they are looking for another job since this one is ending soon.  Personally I can't imagine spending hour upon hour watching an eagle's nest and living out of a tent...but I guess that's why he and I aren't together anymore.  You also couldn't pay me enough to live in Alaska, which is where they are probably headed next...so AGAIN that's why we're not together anymore.  I guess you'd really have to know him to know how much of a change this is.  It's weird...but I am happy...so I guess that's the important thing.  He's essentially jobless, homeless, and he sold his truck so he also doesn't have a vehicle.  Why would I want THAT?! 

 

I know before I said that I missed my "friend Philip" but honestly, I don't think I do anymore.  I care about him and I want him to be happy, but he's not an important part of my life anymore.  I hope that doesn't sound as cruel as it came out, because I don't mean it that way.  Of course, I can't fully escape him because his mom keeps calling me.  She called the other day again and wants to get together.  She IS one of the sweetest people I know and I really, really like her, but sometimes I just wish I could cut all ties altogether.  I also hope THAT doesn't sound as cruel as it came out.

 

At any rate, I know there was more that I wanted to write about when I last posted...but I'm drawing a blank.  Well, to be honest, there are things that are burning a hole in my brain...but they are things that I can't post on this very PUBLIC internet.  I've thought a bit about going private, but that seems to much of a hassle at this time.  So, in the meantime I guess I'll just have to suffer in silence.  Okay, I'm being a bit over dramatic...I'm not "suffering"...but I am bursting at the seams.  I've gotten myself into a bit of a situation and I don't know how to get out of it...and NO I'm not pregnant if that's what you're thinking.

 

So, until next time...hopefully it won't be another month...